woooow.

let me just start off by saying that this rapid influx of blogging done by the bulk of you has been incredibly encouraging....(annnnd my vocabulary points go up major by the use of 'influx'). let me also tell you that i miss you all...not even just saying it, it's really true! as i'm writing, i'm in the vancouver airport about 20 minutes away from heading back to new york. the new yorker in me is pumped to go back, to live in a big city, to see my kids. but another part is thinking whyyyy the heck do i go, and quite literally put my life out there...one white boy in a sea of black faces in the ghetto, when i clearly would have a good life back home. this time at home has been refreshing, but it reminds me of the comforts that i COULD have if i chose to stay. or if i chose to settle for something that i wasn't meant to settle for. it really has hit me today and yesterday...packing up, saying final goodbyes, and now, sitting in the airport. i know it's the right thing, this right here. but it doesn't make it any easier. and it's not like i hate where i'm going either! God has been good...and called me to a place where i love the people and those that i work with...but it's still tough to swallow when there is a comfort bubble at home. thanks for bearing with me, hearing me out...i know that if i was talking in a chapel to you there would be tears streaming down my face (but really...what else is new!). i know that when i get back, and i see my kids, and i see those that i'm close to...that it'll all be ok. there's just moments...moments of wishing that the basic, ordinary, safe life was for me. buuuut that's boring. so it's not.
love you all
come and visit me so i can introduce you to my 6 little sisters (possibly my favorite family...oops. did i say favorite? haha).

graceful scotty.
scotty grace.
take your pick.