.... TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!.. is a day.... THAT IS CHRISTMAS!!! .. i can not believe i'm the first to post.. COME ON PEOPLE
so i was getting tired of waiting for people to post so i could read them as i sit at home. at the moment my mom is chatting to my Nana, Dayle and Andrew are playing N64 (YAHHH you read right N64).. my dad is stringing a guitar and i sit longing to hear from all of you on this day. Because today is a time for family and in my heart you are all still my family! and will always be... If we are 70 and you call me up(and i still remember who i am lol) I pray it will be like we were never apart.
I went to Calgary the other week and got to stay with Katie and jay in the dorms and got to see Al and Dan also. Its was wonderful. My cousin got married that is why i was in the land of the flat... But really it just gave me a sweet excuse to buy a plane ticket to see every one there.
These last few weeks have probably been the hardest of my walk with Christ. Its kinda scary. I felt my heart reverting back to the person i was just a few years ago. My self worth went down, my heart became lonely... longing for love. Not spending time in the word and with my Jesus the way i should did not help this situation. My guide was down and Satan stepped in. Instead of turing to my savour for the true honest love.. i sot out a boy.. one who made me feel beautiful and wanted... but does not love Jesus. I think i started making up excuses for my self to just hang out with him. Knowing the my heart had begun to hold on to him. My heart crossed some lines that i was not read to cross and told me self that i wouldn't for a long time. I laied(not a word Catherine i know lol) on my kitchen floor one night and thought about how i have been, and how my actions have been speaking WAY louder then my words. I prayed and prayed.. feeling nothing but just KNOWING i was in the wrong.. but my heart had not made that same connection. and then I got a text from Jesus.. It was beautiful!!... he chose to speak through a boy who desires not to be with him ... Its crazy how he does that!... Knowing this was a sing from God i told my self to be more careful.. well that never works!.. the strength i have been relying on has been my own... How silly of me! trying to carry the weight of the wold on my back when Christ is bagging me to pass the ball to him. Every time i try to speak out my heart I'm at also for the right words. SO I'm unsure of what picture all of this is painting for you.
My sister Dayle and i have been talking about Christmas and what it bring.... Hope... When Christ was born he brought hope for things yet to come... Now we LIVE IN THIS HOPE!... we are the thing that were to come so long ago.. We live in the Freedom and Love that Christ died to Give!.. Praise Jesus for the hope that people back then ... and praise him for the hope we have today!.. the hope that he saves, The hope that he loves, The hope that he will be back soon.
I do wish to hear you thoughts on what this beautiful day and brought you.
Jim, you shared and passage with Shannon psalms 32. Thank for that! it brought my heart much rest. Its crazy how the Lord told you to memories that knowing that it would not just speak to you!.. GOD IS SOO COOL!
So my christmas morning was grand! my rents gave me a wounderful new camera bag!.. I had my first paying photoshoot yesterday Prase the Lord! lol
I love you all deeply!!!
Peace out Home slices!!!
michelle
I went to Calgary the other week and got to stay with Katie and jay in the dorms and got to see Al and Dan also. Its was wonderful. My cousin got married that is why i was in the land of the flat... But really it just gave me a sweet excuse to buy a plane ticket to see every one there.
These last few weeks have probably been the hardest of my walk with Christ. Its kinda scary. I felt my heart reverting back to the person i was just a few years ago. My self worth went down, my heart became lonely... longing for love. Not spending time in the word and with my Jesus the way i should did not help this situation. My guide was down and Satan stepped in. Instead of turing to my savour for the true honest love.. i sot out a boy.. one who made me feel beautiful and wanted... but does not love Jesus. I think i started making up excuses for my self to just hang out with him. Knowing the my heart had begun to hold on to him. My heart crossed some lines that i was not read to cross and told me self that i wouldn't for a long time. I laied(not a word Catherine i know lol) on my kitchen floor one night and thought about how i have been, and how my actions have been speaking WAY louder then my words. I prayed and prayed.. feeling nothing but just KNOWING i was in the wrong.. but my heart had not made that same connection. and then I got a text from Jesus.. It was beautiful!!... he chose to speak through a boy who desires not to be with him ... Its crazy how he does that!... Knowing this was a sing from God i told my self to be more careful.. well that never works!.. the strength i have been relying on has been my own... How silly of me! trying to carry the weight of the wold on my back when Christ is bagging me to pass the ball to him. Every time i try to speak out my heart I'm at also for the right words. SO I'm unsure of what picture all of this is painting for you.
My sister Dayle and i have been talking about Christmas and what it bring.... Hope... When Christ was born he brought hope for things yet to come... Now we LIVE IN THIS HOPE!... we are the thing that were to come so long ago.. We live in the Freedom and Love that Christ died to Give!.. Praise Jesus for the hope that people back then ... and praise him for the hope we have today!.. the hope that he saves, The hope that he loves, The hope that he will be back soon.
I do wish to hear you thoughts on what this beautiful day and brought you.
Jim, you shared and passage with Shannon psalms 32. Thank for that! it brought my heart much rest. Its crazy how the Lord told you to memories that knowing that it would not just speak to you!.. GOD IS SOO COOL!
So my christmas morning was grand! my rents gave me a wounderful new camera bag!.. I had my first paying photoshoot yesterday Prase the Lord! lol
I love you all deeply!!!
Peace out Home slices!!!
michelle
posted by Michelle at 4:44 PM
2 Comments:
Meesh!! Merry Christmas :D thanks so much for sharing your heart and your thoughts and being so honest. I pray that God would continue to speak to you and remind you that he's always there and always wants you to turn to him no matter what and that he loves you more than you can imagine! thanks again for sharing, you've made me more willing to maybe share my struggles with people, even if its just ppl here in person. I love you oodles!! lets talk soon :)
Thank you Meesh! I've also been checking this blog often without writing... I'll try to get something on here later today.
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