I'm confused and i don't understand

I don't get it right now. I know my God is Good and Just and Faithful, And i know that some times we have to go through things that suck and are crappy. But what if those things make living every day life hard. Since when should drinking coffee, or brushing your one teeth become heard. I'm sitting here on the computer well my mom is struggling to even feed her self. I DONT UNDERSTAND! I'm on my knees, would you please join me.

If it is the lords will for her to slowly get worse, then so be it, But God give me strength! But I pray my faith is Bigger then a mustard seed That i may move this mountain. I'm unsure how to lift this up to you Father, But God would you bring me strength and may my hope rest in your hands.

I love you all deeply, and i praise God for the time we had together. As all of you walk the path that he has set out for you. It encourages me so deeply when i think of all of us spread out all over Canada. Praise God we have become his hands a feet!