Flabergasted

Hey guys!! I want to warn you this is going to possibly be a long blog and a little bit all over the place but bear with me! I pray that you will be praising God as you read this, because He has answered more prayers than I know.
Ok so first of all the most obvious and exciting part of this blogg is Ellies wedding! Oh stinker it was incredible! So many answered prayers through it all, I cant even explain it all. But it was so much fun hanging out with everyone and being blessed by all of you.It was such a privilege to have everyone crammed into out little basement suit and praising Jesus and then sharing about our lives. I can not tell you how much that meant to me. Thank you for bringing the spirit of Kaleo into out basement!
Also as some of you know my car ended up in three pieces this last weekend (stupid muffler). God is incredible and not only got us to Crofton before the third piece came off, and lead us to crofton so that we could get to Vic the next day, but also blessed me with money to pay for it from an amazing angel! ( Lol I wish you guys could have seen my reaction...)
Ok so this is a very long and complicated story so please bare with me!
So for those of you who don't know I have applied to be assistant head councilor at camp this summer. I had my interview just over a week ago and since then haven't really been feeling that confident about the position. I believe that it was last Tuesday night I was driving home from bible study and just started really praying about this position. I felt that God was telling me to surrender this to Him, so with lots of tears and very reluctantly I did. I gave it all to Him closing the conversation with " Ok God I am not going to camp this summer, I guess I am staying in LC". I was dreading the conversation with Amanda. I played it over and over in my head, assuming that it would be her rejecting me for the position and me knowing that I was not going to be at camp this summer. I by the way was ok with this. Terrified but knowing that God would lead!
Ok so on Thursday Alex surprised me and came to work and it was a joyous reunion. I was suppose to work for another few hours, but the ladies I work with told me to leave and go play! So I did. We went to camp and I took Catherine to go see Amanda. While we were there Amanda told me that she wanted to ask me a question and to come back little later. I pretty much figured that she was going to tell me that I didn't have the position and wondering if I wanted any other position, which of course there were no other ones that I wanted. So Amanda and I had a chat and she pretty much said that except instead of asking me if I wanted to choose another position at camp she asked me if I would consider CIT councillor. First thought that came into my head was no this is Michelles position. She went on to explain that they weren't offering me this possission to me because they felt like Michelle couldn't do it ( we all know she would be incredible at it) but rather with the other staff on the events team she would make an incredible addition to that team, and they felt that I would do well at CIT counselor.
This blew me away. I could not believe that God was giving me this opportunity, and was very confused as to why He would do it this way, in such a way that Michelle could potentially get hurt so bad. I wrestled with this all weekend. Meesh and I have talked about this so much and in her mind this position was already hers, so i prayed and prayed that God would either a) give Michelle a heart of surrender to this position or b) give her the position all together. Either way I was so scared about how this would effect our friendship and didnt really think that much about accepting the posission other than if Meesh gets hurt I am not taking it.
** SIDE NOTE** Also with accepting any position at camp I knew that we would have to leave the church and youth group so I have been praying that God will raise up a couple in our church to take this position and that the church would support them and offer child care for them***
So yesterday I got to work and asked a lady there how the AGM meeting went at Church (meesh and I presented a letter to the church about the youth and also asked them to start praying about new leaders). The lady told me that they asked this couple in the church of they would pray about taking over the youth and then members of the church also offered to to child care! SO AMAZING!!!! No one other than meesh knew those specific prayer request that I have been praying and now they have been answered. We don't know if the couple are going to accept but they are praying!
Ok so after work yesterday I went to Jims and talked to Him about this whole situation. We both were alittle be nervous about how this would effect mine and Michelle's friendship as she still didnt know about mine and amanda's conversation. Just as I was leaving to go to bible study Amanda came home. I started to talk to her about it and she told me to talk to Meesh and then to call her. So went to Bible study and after wards I told michelle before she drives home to pull over so that we could talk. She says I was just about to say the same thing! So she gets in my car and tells me that before I talk she needs to go first. She goes on to tell me that at work that day she surrendered her heart for CIT counselor to God and asked him to give what ever name it needs to be ( yup answer to prayer!!!) . She later got home and got a phone call from Amanda, this was the first time that she heard about not getting CIT counselor and then also me possibly having the position. She was so excited when she was telling me this. I of course was crying as I was hearing answered prayer after answered prayer coming out of her mouth. She told me that she was so excited to be Stevies assistant and that she was so stoked at the possibility of me being CIT councilor!!! ( STINK!!!! I am honestly trembling right now... God is SO AMAZING!!!!!!) So Meesh and I ended that conversation with prayer and once again an even stronger friendship.
So today I talked to Amanda and she offered me the position and I told her I needed to pray about it. So on the way home I did. When I am in prayer about it I feel at peace and know that there are toooo many answers to prayer to say no, it is when I start thinking about all of the little things that I get scared and not wanting to do it. I have weighed it out, and my one or two reasons for doing this position are way more than my 6 or 7 reasons for not wanting to do it, selfish reasons. So I am going to be CIT counselor this summer!! I am nervous but sooo stoked about what God has in store...
I am also amazed that through this all God has once again been teaching Michelle her big lesion of surrender and my big lesion of faith...
MY MIND IS BLOWEN!!!!! I can not belive this!!
Thank you for reading this far. I am alittle disappointed that I can not put into words all the ways that God has so obviously blessed me and answered sooooo many prayers in this past week, but I promise that when we get to heaven I will get God to show you the video!!! I love you all sooo much and miss you, but am so excited about where God is taking us all!!!
Love you all lots and lots!!
~Shar hope!