Prayer

Hey guys!! So I would appreciate your prayers (this may get long I apologize). Ok so I was at camp this weekend and it was amazing! ! I had such a blast with old friends and made new ones and realized that I am not alone in this ugly world. I have been put into a crazy harsh battle field this year and for the most part it has made me rest on God even more, but lately I am seeing myself go right down hill like the rest of them. I am "keeping the appearance" of a Christian but as we all know appearance in nothing and it is in the heart, and that is where I am struggling. I don't really know the last time I really sought Gods voice. I am in a dry spot and just need to get away from this world and be surrounded by people that love me so much and not with there own love but with the love of Jesus Christ. So that said, I am having to seek God about whether or not I should quite work 2 weeks early and go to Camp for a month of advance crew, and also if I am really wanting to Sr. Council this summer. I don't know what to do and honestly am afraid to ask God in fear that His answers won’t be the same as mine, even though I know His way is better!
So a guy that’s what’s going on, I am beaten down and weary and am feeling so alone right now. Please pray, I know the manipulating power that Satan has and know the Awesome Power that God has, and right now those two powers are going at it in my heart,.
Thank you!!