Hello my friends...
Hey everybody,
just wanted to say hi. Life is difficult but God is so faithful. I've been really struggling with reaching out in community, I feel like all my close friends are far away and it's so hard to make new friends and develop relationships. Sometimes I feel like I hit a brick wall at my church, I know a lot of people on a shallow level but have very few actual deep relationships...I think a large part of this is because I am busy, very busy (because its hard to sit still, I don't like being alone) but perhaps I am not making enough time for people.
But God sees me, I know this, and he knows me, and he hears me. He brings me friends when I really, really need them (like this weekend I got to see Meesh and Adam!) I don't want to just talk about what community should be and complain when it isn't, I want to move toward creating and nurturing it. I just find it hard to step out of my comfortable place I guess.
And Christmas is going to be hard. My dad's birthday is on Christmas day so that adds to an already difficult day. But Lewis and I are going to Mexico with his family in a couple weeks and will miss spending the first Christmas day without dad with my mom and sister. But I am praying (and if you think of it, maybe you could join me in this) that this will be just what I (we) need.
Could you pray, my friends?
I love and miss you guys. Matt it is so good to hear a bit about what you're up to. And Dan and Katie, I am SO excited for you guys. Marriage is really fun and fabulous :)
I'm back on facebook again. Add me if you think of it!
And I've started another blog to help me process grief and emotions. I needed to start writing again. IF you want to check it out click here
Love you guys lots!
Ellie
just wanted to say hi. Life is difficult but God is so faithful. I've been really struggling with reaching out in community, I feel like all my close friends are far away and it's so hard to make new friends and develop relationships. Sometimes I feel like I hit a brick wall at my church, I know a lot of people on a shallow level but have very few actual deep relationships...I think a large part of this is because I am busy, very busy (because its hard to sit still, I don't like being alone) but perhaps I am not making enough time for people.
But God sees me, I know this, and he knows me, and he hears me. He brings me friends when I really, really need them (like this weekend I got to see Meesh and Adam!) I don't want to just talk about what community should be and complain when it isn't, I want to move toward creating and nurturing it. I just find it hard to step out of my comfortable place I guess.
And Christmas is going to be hard. My dad's birthday is on Christmas day so that adds to an already difficult day. But Lewis and I are going to Mexico with his family in a couple weeks and will miss spending the first Christmas day without dad with my mom and sister. But I am praying (and if you think of it, maybe you could join me in this) that this will be just what I (we) need.
Could you pray, my friends?
I love and miss you guys. Matt it is so good to hear a bit about what you're up to. And Dan and Katie, I am SO excited for you guys. Marriage is really fun and fabulous :)
I'm back on facebook again. Add me if you think of it!
And I've started another blog to help me process grief and emotions. I needed to start writing again. IF you want to check it out click here
Love you guys lots!
Ellie
posted by Ellie at 4:35 PM
2 Comments:
elles. i so appreciate your sincerity and honesty.
i think of you and lew often and will definitely be lifting you up in prayer. you are such a treasure.
though not the same, but when i lost stace i felt like i couldn't love, really love, ever again. i was so fearful. but God opened my heart slowly and allowed me to love my kaleo family. you. i can't imagine what i would have missed if i wouldn't have allowed myself to open up to you all.
i know and trust that our Father will do the same for you. provide in the same way.
i have no doubt there are mannnny people at church who would love to get to know you better. i mean, seriously, you're pretty amazing.
love always
al
Al, your words and your heart and your story continually minister to me... i love you so much!
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