The Dust has Settled
Hello Everyone!
First off I want to apologize for the suspence suffered on your part. I dropped a big load with a large ? at the end and didn't utter a peep afterwards.
Although to be honest my experience hasn't been much better, "should I stay or should I go." One couldn't count how many times I thought that the last week.
My family is slowly but surely picking their lives up; one baby step at a time. Their was a small cabin in the Ranch yard that had been vacant for a couple of months. They will live there till the end of June, afterwhich they are moving away from the Ranch to begin a new life. A much fresher start than intended now that everything is gone.
Mom is stuck in a deep, deep, depression. She was a real packrat so loosing all her treasures has hit her hard. Mostly its her thousands of photos of us kids all through the years. Along with hours of home videos of us being goofy toddlers.
She will struggle, but at this point we don't think she will be going back into the hospital at all.
So I am staying; I will live in the U.K. until sept, and travel as intended. I'm relieved! I didn't want to loose the life I've established here. I live at a pub, I'm a barman and waiter. You can google it at The Queens Arms, Corton Denham, Somerset, U.K.
I have such a brilliant circle of mates in and around the village that are so good to me and take me out. I'm just me around them, and they love it. I love it when I feel comfortable to be myself. Like with you guys.
It is extremely dissapionting thinking of everything I left in MB that is now gone. All my souvenirs from all my travelling. I sent all the stuff I bought in Africa, "to be safe while I'm in Europe." Heh! Ironic eh. The journals I regret loosing the most, anyone on Team India knows how much time I wasted writting the bleedin stuff out.
Its been simply irritating trying to remeber all of my rubbish and how much it was all worth! Insurance ballocks! None the less, I think decades down the road our family will look back and laugh. My parents nearly broke-up three weeks before the blaze. The stress of money and plans for leaving the Ranch. Where were they going? what were they doing? It almost broke them!
Now all they have left is each other and us kids and they can't believe they were getting so worked up over so many daft things! I think God really does have a sense of humor in all of it. They new they needed to leave the ranch and start a new life. They'd hesitate, get scared, loose trust, fight, repeat cycle. I think God just went, poof! "There you go, if your not going to burn your bridges I'll do it for you."
Our entire family has been overrunned with prayer and e-mails, you lot included.
Its been emotional, yet I'm excited at how my family has and will grow through the experience.
Now, I'm absalutely shattered I've worked 36hrs in three days. Mothers Day weekend here. With gorgeous weather as well, holidays and good whether always mean a bombing for us in the catering buisness. Need to recover before my b-day bash on Wednesday.
I love you all so much, thanks for the prayers. We needed them
"THE SHOW MUST GO ON"
First off I want to apologize for the suspence suffered on your part. I dropped a big load with a large ? at the end and didn't utter a peep afterwards.
Although to be honest my experience hasn't been much better, "should I stay or should I go." One couldn't count how many times I thought that the last week.
My family is slowly but surely picking their lives up; one baby step at a time. Their was a small cabin in the Ranch yard that had been vacant for a couple of months. They will live there till the end of June, afterwhich they are moving away from the Ranch to begin a new life. A much fresher start than intended now that everything is gone.
Mom is stuck in a deep, deep, depression. She was a real packrat so loosing all her treasures has hit her hard. Mostly its her thousands of photos of us kids all through the years. Along with hours of home videos of us being goofy toddlers.
She will struggle, but at this point we don't think she will be going back into the hospital at all.
So I am staying; I will live in the U.K. until sept, and travel as intended. I'm relieved! I didn't want to loose the life I've established here. I live at a pub, I'm a barman and waiter. You can google it at The Queens Arms, Corton Denham, Somerset, U.K.
I have such a brilliant circle of mates in and around the village that are so good to me and take me out. I'm just me around them, and they love it. I love it when I feel comfortable to be myself. Like with you guys.
It is extremely dissapionting thinking of everything I left in MB that is now gone. All my souvenirs from all my travelling. I sent all the stuff I bought in Africa, "to be safe while I'm in Europe." Heh! Ironic eh. The journals I regret loosing the most, anyone on Team India knows how much time I wasted writting the bleedin stuff out.
Its been simply irritating trying to remeber all of my rubbish and how much it was all worth! Insurance ballocks! None the less, I think decades down the road our family will look back and laugh. My parents nearly broke-up three weeks before the blaze. The stress of money and plans for leaving the Ranch. Where were they going? what were they doing? It almost broke them!
Now all they have left is each other and us kids and they can't believe they were getting so worked up over so many daft things! I think God really does have a sense of humor in all of it. They new they needed to leave the ranch and start a new life. They'd hesitate, get scared, loose trust, fight, repeat cycle. I think God just went, poof! "There you go, if your not going to burn your bridges I'll do it for you."
Our entire family has been overrunned with prayer and e-mails, you lot included.
Its been emotional, yet I'm excited at how my family has and will grow through the experience.
Now, I'm absalutely shattered I've worked 36hrs in three days. Mothers Day weekend here. With gorgeous weather as well, holidays and good whether always mean a bombing for us in the catering buisness. Need to recover before my b-day bash on Wednesday.
I love you all so much, thanks for the prayers. We needed them
"THE SHOW MUST GO ON"
posted by Kurtis Hoff at 5:21 PM
1 Comments:
Kurt! you are loved!
He is working everything for good. And hey, we can't take that stuff with us anyway.... :)
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