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Hey guys!
Well it's been quite a long time since I've posted and I think it's about time that I did. I've been putting off writing because I didn't know what I would write, and there was always other stuff to be doing. That's kinda how the past while has been. There's always more things I can do and everything seems to take more time that it should and so my days just kinda disappear. I've still been struggling in finding time with God. I've be really good at reading my Bible and that but it still doesn't feel like the same meeting with God. I find it really really hard when I sit down and read my Bible and that's all good but then get up and rush around doing things and not doing any of it with God. I think it was Amanda that said something to me about seeing the world as God sees it. This is what one of my desires has been, to be able to see people and see in them the hurt and brokenness that needs God. I've found myself to be pretty apathetic, which is not a good place to be! There's two things that I really miss and I feel have been affecting me. One is open honest conversation. The type we had at Kaleo where when you asked someone what's up or noticed that something was bothering someone and asked them you'd get the straight up answer. I'm not sure what it is but it seems that people just cannot go there. Is it fear, individualism, no example? I don't know but man it bugs me. I always thought I was pretty intreverted with my God times but I'm realizing more and more how I wasn't during Kaleo, especially when I see how much I miss real conversations. I've also really missed being in leadership in ministry. I have been stepping back a little (just a little though=). This has been good because I was sitting back and observing, catching up on what was done this year, the group, the leaders and what not which totally needed to be done but yesterday I had a meeting with the youth pastor at the church to plan stuff about what I'll be doing in August and it got me so pumped. I actually feel so alive, getting to do some visioning and planning!! So where I'm at now. I'm so excited about church stuff. Coming back in August to start full time and there is lots of amazing stuff that I will be working on. Tomorrow I head to camp to work for 6 weeks. I'm so stinking excited to be back at camp and to especially be with the other Kaleo people there and have some awesome talks. Camp is also a lot different with all of the changes this year and then also with the fact that I won't be there all summer kinda changes things. So prayer for that would be sweet. That God would give me a heart and passion for what He wants me to do with my time at camp. Also that God would give me a heart for the people back at home. I was reading last night in James and this verse really really hit me. James 3:17-18 says "But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. Peacemakers who sow in peace raise a harvest of righteousness." I'm not fully sure what this means for me but it struck a big chord in me. It sums up so much of what I'm longing for right now. That's about hit guys. I'll see some of you tomorrow and the rest, I promise to keep in touch more!
Well it's been quite a long time since I've posted and I think it's about time that I did. I've been putting off writing because I didn't know what I would write, and there was always other stuff to be doing. That's kinda how the past while has been. There's always more things I can do and everything seems to take more time that it should and so my days just kinda disappear. I've still been struggling in finding time with God. I've be really good at reading my Bible and that but it still doesn't feel like the same meeting with God. I find it really really hard when I sit down and read my Bible and that's all good but then get up and rush around doing things and not doing any of it with God. I think it was Amanda that said something to me about seeing the world as God sees it. This is what one of my desires has been, to be able to see people and see in them the hurt and brokenness that needs God. I've found myself to be pretty apathetic, which is not a good place to be! There's two things that I really miss and I feel have been affecting me. One is open honest conversation. The type we had at Kaleo where when you asked someone what's up or noticed that something was bothering someone and asked them you'd get the straight up answer. I'm not sure what it is but it seems that people just cannot go there. Is it fear, individualism, no example? I don't know but man it bugs me. I always thought I was pretty intreverted with my God times but I'm realizing more and more how I wasn't during Kaleo, especially when I see how much I miss real conversations. I've also really missed being in leadership in ministry. I have been stepping back a little (just a little though=). This has been good because I was sitting back and observing, catching up on what was done this year, the group, the leaders and what not which totally needed to be done but yesterday I had a meeting with the youth pastor at the church to plan stuff about what I'll be doing in August and it got me so pumped. I actually feel so alive, getting to do some visioning and planning!! So where I'm at now. I'm so excited about church stuff. Coming back in August to start full time and there is lots of amazing stuff that I will be working on. Tomorrow I head to camp to work for 6 weeks. I'm so stinking excited to be back at camp and to especially be with the other Kaleo people there and have some awesome talks. Camp is also a lot different with all of the changes this year and then also with the fact that I won't be there all summer kinda changes things. So prayer for that would be sweet. That God would give me a heart and passion for what He wants me to do with my time at camp. Also that God would give me a heart for the people back at home. I was reading last night in James and this verse really really hit me. James 3:17-18 says "But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. Peacemakers who sow in peace raise a harvest of righteousness." I'm not fully sure what this means for me but it struck a big chord in me. It sums up so much of what I'm longing for right now. That's about hit guys. I'll see some of you tomorrow and the rest, I promise to keep in touch more!
posted by Chris D at 4:27 PM
2 Comments:
Chris Downey! Good to hear from you! I def know what you mean about the God being restricted to only the time you spend in the Bible and praying. I'll be praying that He will completely penetrate every area of your life. See you on thrusday! sooooo excited!
Thank you so much for letting us in to what's going on in your heart and in your life, Chris! I am going to see you so soon and I am so excited to be a part of the staff team with you! I know you will be such an asset this summer. God bless!
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