hey beautiful people
hey my family... i also felt convicted by scotty's post... so here is what is going on in my life...
i arrived at camp last monday and began working right away, getting ready for the big family retreat that happened this past weekend. it has been such a good, good thing for me to be here at camp again, getting comfortable with club coco stuff and just getting to know these amazing people who make up advance crew thus far. As many of you know, Lew got the position as CIT Counsellor, which was so exciting and such a cool answer to prayer... but (and i'm not really sure how to say this) we soon felt that God confirmed in both of our hearts that it is best for us to take a break from our relationship. It was a mutual thing... and i think we have been feeling it for a while but just weren't sure how to deal with it... So we are waiting on the Lord, for confirmation... the right timing... preparedness of heart... we have left this in the hands of Jesus. I've written in a few previous posts that God has been moving in my heart and stirring up such a desire for purity of heart and healing and satisfaction in Christ alone... a longing to come close to Christ and learn about my identity in Him rather than expecting unhealthy things from a relationship. This summer is going to be really difficult, especially when we will be seeing each other often, but i really do feel like we have both been called here and i know that Jesus is going to show us soooo many incredible things. Lewis is a good, good man... but we have just realized that the timing is not right. I know this comes as kind of a shock to you guys... it did to us too... and it hurts so much... but Jesus has already been so faithful in surrounding me with amazing girls who have prayed with me and let me cry on their shoulder... this is really the perfect place for me to be now. And i know that God will continue what he has begun in us, whether that means being together or whether we are called to different things. Please pray for us... for peace, joy.... that God would put it on our hearts to pray for and lift each other up.... that our hearts would be guarded and healed... for direction in where each of us is supposed to go next. I think i wanna get away somehwere after the summer... practice my bravery a little bit... anyone got extra room in their house? got any ideas?...I love you guys soooo much, really really.
"It is a safe thing to trust Him to fulfill the desire which He creates." -Amy Carmichael
"Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things will be added unto you." -Matthew 6:somethin
-Ellie bellie
i arrived at camp last monday and began working right away, getting ready for the big family retreat that happened this past weekend. it has been such a good, good thing for me to be here at camp again, getting comfortable with club coco stuff and just getting to know these amazing people who make up advance crew thus far. As many of you know, Lew got the position as CIT Counsellor, which was so exciting and such a cool answer to prayer... but (and i'm not really sure how to say this) we soon felt that God confirmed in both of our hearts that it is best for us to take a break from our relationship. It was a mutual thing... and i think we have been feeling it for a while but just weren't sure how to deal with it... So we are waiting on the Lord, for confirmation... the right timing... preparedness of heart... we have left this in the hands of Jesus. I've written in a few previous posts that God has been moving in my heart and stirring up such a desire for purity of heart and healing and satisfaction in Christ alone... a longing to come close to Christ and learn about my identity in Him rather than expecting unhealthy things from a relationship. This summer is going to be really difficult, especially when we will be seeing each other often, but i really do feel like we have both been called here and i know that Jesus is going to show us soooo many incredible things. Lewis is a good, good man... but we have just realized that the timing is not right. I know this comes as kind of a shock to you guys... it did to us too... and it hurts so much... but Jesus has already been so faithful in surrounding me with amazing girls who have prayed with me and let me cry on their shoulder... this is really the perfect place for me to be now. And i know that God will continue what he has begun in us, whether that means being together or whether we are called to different things. Please pray for us... for peace, joy.... that God would put it on our hearts to pray for and lift each other up.... that our hearts would be guarded and healed... for direction in where each of us is supposed to go next. I think i wanna get away somehwere after the summer... practice my bravery a little bit... anyone got extra room in their house? got any ideas?...I love you guys soooo much, really really.
"It is a safe thing to trust Him to fulfill the desire which He creates." -Amy Carmichael
"Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things will be added unto you." -Matthew 6:somethin
-Ellie bellie
posted by Ellie at 11:48 PM
2 Comments:
wow ellie, thanks for the post. im excited and hurting and happy for you all at once!!
God Bless you!!
steve
Ellanora the Brave...You are an amazing woman of God, this step has taken a lot of bravery in itself, and a lot of relying on God and Him alone! I think that speaks hugely of where you're at with God! I'm so proud of you for facing this and accepting it, yet I feel the pain as well for you. I'm praying for you and I can't wait to see you next time I get to camp!!!!
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